Hello hello!
I'm sorry I've been gone for some time. A lot of things have happened recently and it has taken a big toll on me. But with how everything is now I'm doing a lot better and haven't been as stressed as I have been for the past year and a half.
So I guess I'll let you all know a little bit of what has been going on.
The biggest thing that happened was my partner of three years and I have finally broken things off. Sad as it might be it was actually the best thing we could have done. We have been butting heads ever since the second year of the relationship. And as most couples do argue it wasn't the healthy amount(if you can say there is any healthy amount to it??). We would find every little thing to get upset with one another and then go off. Or it would be me and say something that I would think that was helping them but then it would backfire and I would get a bit stressed and upset on the whole thing.
We did take a a few breaks here and there to see if we could just figure everything out. That didn't work till our third break when my partner finally just gave up and accepted it all. I personally think it was all my fault for how it went. I stopped feeling the spark between us and just started to shut down. And with that my stress levels, anxiety, and depression went downhill for the worse. It got to the point that I didn't want to go to work, clean the apartment, feed myself, shower, draw...basically everything you should do to keep yourself alive and healthy I avoided it all. I actually lost a lot of weight that I needed due to it all.
Anyways, with our break up we thought we could try to live as friends and take breaks where we would visit family so the other could have time alone. This was only in agree since our year lease wasn't up yet, still isn't. It was going fine for awhile until I said something to help out them while making dinner. That blew it up and we agreed that I would move back into my parents place and they could have the apartment.
So as I go over to my parents for Christmas I talk to my mom and she of course said that I'm always welcome back home. With that being said the next day we started to move around the office and basically clear the room for me to move all my stuff into. So right now I'm currently in the room I'm going to have only half furnished as I still need to get my bed and dresser from the apartment.
With all that being said I am much happier that we ended it and that I'm out of the apartment. I hate saying and admitting to that but it really is true. I've missed my family a lot and with being here I feel like I'm connecting with them all again.
But I have gotten sick with the stress of getting all of my stuff from the apartment. I just want to get it all done and over with so I don't have to worry about it anymore.
But I wanted to make this journal so everyone knew what was going on and that I will be trying to get back on here more and actually start working on the commissions I have.
I'll be opening up the commissions again soon once I'm fully moved in which shouldn't be too long...just got to wait for the snow here to melt away.
But I'm going to start making commissions through paypal since I need money at the moment *cries*
Also! A bit off topic, I have made a Redbubble store and have a few things up on there now but hopefully I have get more. But if you are interested here is the
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